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Name: Techieehippiee
Home: Vermont, United States
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| Friday, June 24, 2011 |
| Introspection |
Blogging for the first time in five months is a feat in itself. Its hard to know exactly where to start. This year has been an interesting one to say the least but also one of a lot of positive growth. This summer I decided to work a lot less and concentrate on me a bit more. What that exactly entails, I am not really sure, but I know that It needs to happen on a physical, mental and spiritual level. I still have a lot of hard work ahead of me and that may sound like a daunting task, but one of necessity. If I want to be the woman I always envisioned myself to be, I have to make myself the number one priority and accomplish what I need to get there. So to keep my head in the game, I make a pledge to blog at least twice a week. I hope that you all will read about my journey. I cannot promise that it will be exciting, or fun all the time, but I do promise that it will be an interesting one to say the least.
Namaste! |
posted by Techieehippiee @ 10:33 PM  |
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| Tuesday, January 4, 2011 |
| How can time pass by so fast, but yet so slowly? |
| Lately I feel as if I am in some kind of a time vortex. I wanted to just view my blog today and I noticed the last post was 20 October?! Its almost like I have been sleep walking my daily routine. I woke up from a nightmare this morning, and realized the nightmare was my brain obviously dealing with shit my heart does not want to. I find that my brain and my heart fight a lot these days and I am better off staying out of it. But does staying out of it worth it? Its like when two of your closest friends suddenly do not like each other at all, but still want to be your friend. You are sad and want it to stop, and have all of you hang out again and have fun, but you can't. Something is completely different. Do you get involved and have them both dislike you? Or keep quiet and just be sad that things are different,and you had no choice in the matter? Well that is kind of where I am at. So dear heart and brain, I love you both... but you are starting to piss me off...please get your shit together... Sincerely, Me. |
posted by Techieehippiee @ 9:21 AM  |
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| Wednesday, October 20, 2010 |
| Just Love... |
As many of you already know, I will be getting married next month. Wow! so much to do in such little time! I have gotten some wonderful deals( i heart craigslist), tried to stay as true to my philosophy of simple,yet fun, leave a little footprint on the earth as possible, and most of all, just have a ceremony and party that not only celebrates mine and JJ's union, but celebrates those who are nearest and dearest to our hearts. A lot of people are going above and beyond to make our day special, and we are very fortunate to have such wonderful( and creative!!!) people in our lives. I have been very impressed how people are putting together their talents ( baking, decorating, organization, keeping the bride sane ;o)) to make our dream day a reality. It really warms my heart to think of all the effort that has been made. Hell even the school I am working at donated all the napkins,plates and forks!
But in the midst of all that is going on with planning the wedding, I have completely taken for granted that we can get married, without a thought. No legal hassle, no one protesting our union or calling us horrible names for wanting to love each other. So many people out there who are in love and want to spend their lives together do not get this choice to just marry. They fight and struggle personal hardships at work, school, even their families... just because they love someone of the same sex. So especially today I wanted to take a moment to send my heart out to those who cannot openly( and legally) express their love and commitment to each other. Its sad in this day and age, and quite frankly saddens me in a way that I wish I could convey in words.
Love overcomes all boundaries. It does not know labels. We as humans put them there. lets take them away, and simply... love. |
posted by Techieehippiee @ 1:46 PM  |
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| Wednesday, September 8, 2010 |
| So that did not work. |
Firstly, I am not using tumblr anymore, as it is too glitchy and it takes forever to edit my posts. It has a cool layout, but not worth the aggravation. So I am back on blogger.
I was going back and looking over my old posts and I have some mixed emotions over them. Especially the last one " stay human." I am still deeply saddened by the loss of my dear friend Jackie. She lived by the Mantra of finding the joy in life out of everyday simple things. I vowed to start living more in this way because the simplicity of what she shared with me was too amazing and true to ignore. But somehow I did. Today is three months that my mom also passed, and I find myself back to feeling empty and again deeply saddened. As much as I want to remember them both for the wonderful inspiring women that they were( still cannot get used to past tenses...) I feel like I am swimming against the tide of my emotions. The more I try, the worse I feel. I go to work, I come home, I zone into shit, then I go to sleep... rinse,repeat... The oddest thing about it all is the fact that sometimes, I feel like I do not have the right to feel so strongly... And that fucks with my head too... :shrugs: I will just continue to overplay nine inch nails and hopefully one day things will make sense. |
posted by Techieehippiee @ 11:52 AM  |
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| Friday, March 5, 2010 |
| Stay Human... |
| Stay Human, a wonderful song by Michael Franti...
I have been wondering to myself lately, why I have not been blogging, writing, taking pictures or doing a lot of the things that help me become centered and peaceful. The easy answer would be "life has been chaotic, we had a recent loss in our family." But to be honest, that would only be a half-truth. I am deeply saddened by the passing of my mother-in-law and dear friend. However, I feel it would be an injustice to her spirit and her teachings if i did not try to live in the moment and do things that bring me Joy. So I have decided starting today, I will try to be more mindful of things that bring me joy in my life, and like mom, pass on that joy to others... That is how she will live on in my heart and still remind me to stay in the moment and bring joy...to myself :)
Labels: life, love, mindful, mom, photography, staying in the moment, writing |
posted by Techieehippiee @ 9:56 AM  |
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| Monday, April 13, 2009 |
| Actions are the seed of fate... |

Its funny how life works. Those who know me personally, know that i am a huge believer in fate. Sure we do have a hand in making out own fate, but on a grander scale the universe guides our destiny. This past year I have taken a lot of chances, made some mistakes, and learned a lot about myself. The past week I have taken another leap into the abyss, clutching solely on my gut and hoping for the best. Uncertainty is not my forte so as you can imagine I was very uncomfortable. But everything fell into place. I made the difficult decision to quit my job, and i know most of you are gasping and saying" In this economy?! are you kidding?" Yes, I had the same feeling and I was scared. but my gut knew better.(I have to make a bigger effort to listen to it... its wise ) My body and soul was rotting at my current place of employment . I was becoming one of those disgruntled workers who are snarky and detest what they do. The worst part about it, it was spilling over into my personal life making me into a horrible nitpicking roommate, whiny ,snarky girlfriend and party pooper of a friend who would just want to always veg at home. That is not who I am nor did I want it to assimilate into my personality either. Something had to give. Once I put out decision into the universe , and took my foot out my mouth and gave my two weeks, my resume was yielding job offers. Where before i made the decision to just quit, I would go on interviews, but to no avail. An interesting coincidence? I do not think so. I think the universe was waiting on for me to get of my proverbial indecisive ass and get the wheels in motion. So, now I am going back to doing what I love to do, be an Autism Interventionist. My gut coupled with my faith in the universe has not steered me wrong(when I have been smart enough to listen) and all the greatest things I have in my life right now I am so thankful for. My life has again gone up one more rung on the ladder of happiness. I just have to know that I will not fall if I trust in myself... |
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| Monday, April 6, 2009 |
| Voluntary Imperfections |
Most people try to conceal their imperfections. Society has hammered into our heads that we are to be perfect( or at least hold the facade that we are). We all fail to be perfect because, alas we are human! But what we are missing is the fact that what we perceive as a intrinsic flaw maybe the thing that someone holds dear about you.
Ever notice when you are at a store or browsing through a catalogue, if something is hand made it has a little caveat stating" Item may be have slight imperfections due to the nature of being hand made" But that is why we love hand made products, because they are unique!
All I am saying, is instead of expending countless amounts of energy concealing our "imperfections" we should treat them as we would a rare handmade scarf, or handcrafted furniture.( or any other rare treasure that comes to your mind) Celebrating its little imperfections as a showcase for being different.
So I am going to end this entry on something I say to myself whenever I get sucked into trying to be perfect... its from a poem I was trying to write , but came out with this entry instead:
I am perfectly imperfect and that is perfectly okay. |
posted by Techieehippiee @ 2:21 AM  |
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